If i die young.

My title is from a song by The Band Perry, and i feel its appropriate to post a few other lyrics so that you all don't think my post is morbid in thought.

" if i die young bury me in satin
lay me down on a bed of roses
sink me in the river at dawn
send me away with the words of a love song

the sharp knife of a short life
well, i've had just enough time."

i love that line " well, i've had just enough time" for the first time, i  feel that way. i've had enough time. Life is great, and i look forward to another 50+ years on this earth, but if not, well, i've had just enough time.
i hope that doesn't seem morbid to you.

Heaven beckons, and for the first time i long for heaven, the good life worshipping God for all eternity.
Granted i have a list a mile long of things i would like to do before my time here on earth is up.
but its not the end all and the be all.
   Its freeing, this feeling of completion. of letting go. i'm no longer anxious for all the things i've yet to do and may never get to.


well friends, have a happy monday and i hope you don't feel that this post is morbid because its filled me with so much excitement.

life. decaffeinated.

its been awhile.
 no new food posts, no new posts about random things.
simply silence.
yet my life hasn't been silent.
its been anything but...

I feel as though my life has been loud lately; loud, excitable, crazy, unpredictable, creative and full of love.
so full of love that i just might burst from the goodness of it.

i gave up caffeinated coffee sometime in march, i used to count the weeks, but somewhere along the way it just didn't seem all that important anymore. then last week i stopped drinking even decaff coffee on a regular basis... yep, me; the person that used to say: " i will never love a man the way i love my morning coffee".
  its strange almost, to realize that person is gone now... that i'm someone completely different, yet the same.
it feels good. this peace inside.
it gives me a strength and confidence i didn't know i had, or even had to potential to possess.
 it excites me, this change. because i know that God is working, and that i am open to this growth...
to be tender and teachable is all that i want, but i know how stubborn i can be at times...
its a slow process for sure, but, exciting.
everyday is an adventure, and i wake up each morning in anticipation of it...