Monday, October 31, 2011

Child-Like excitement.

     This weekend I got reacquainted with my inner child..
For the first time in a long time i've been able to play dress up...
Normally i don't get that excited about Halloween, but this year, this year  I was feeling it.

       So I decided to go all out.
  After much contemplation I decided to go as Amelie Poulain from Amelie, 
        one of my favorite films.
I feel a comrade with this character, and I liked the challenge of how she looks nothing like me
I, with my long blond hair and blue/grey( occasionally green) eyes
and Her, with her dark brown eyes and dark short hair.

       I welcomed the challenge and stepped up to the plate. After much research I finally found dark brown contacts. You would not believe how hard it was to find dark brown contacts... but in true Meghan fashion I did not relent until I found the exact color contact that I wanted. I also found a great wig that I modified to look like Amelie's hair and the results looked like this.

My church also had a trunk or treat , and I helped out by painting faces. It also afforded me the chance to wear yet another costume.   This time I kept it a little more simple and just bought a pair of fairy wings. 
In true New England fashion, we were expecting a snow storm later that evening so I had to get creative in order to keep myself warm and the results looked like this.
this is me with my little friend Anna. She gets super excited every time she sees me and runs towards me with her arms wide open for a hug... pretty apparent why she's quickly become a favorite :-)

Anna's mom, my dear friend Christy invited me to go trick or treating with her and Anna due to the fact that Christy would be watching a friends daughter who close in age to Anna and she concerned about taking the 2 out alone.  I, of course, jumped at the chance for another excuse to put on a costume.
I decided to keep the the wings but go for something with a little more pizzaz and ended up looking more like Barbie fairy than actual fairy, but I still liked it.
this is us all dressed up and ready to go get some free candy!!!

Anyway, all that to say that the last few days have been some of the best days because I have been creating and playing and just enjoying life. 
I was made for this.
Almost everyday I experience something that makes me think " I was made for this" and its such an awesome experience. I feel like everything I have been going through this past year has made me ready for this; this self-discovery of who I am. 
And I thank God daily for it.








                                                                                    

Sunday, October 9, 2011

sleep.

I've been concerned lately, with all the changes going on in my life; new job, new house, my schedule has been up in the air and changing daily. but one thing i have started to notice is how much i have been sleeping..
 and i hate it.
i sleep all the time.
i am tired so much.
what happened to me? i used to be able to be full steam with just 6 or 7 hours and now i can barely get my butt out of bed.
its scaring me.
because its got me wondering.
could i be depressed?
all this tiredness, this sullen feeling?
all these great things are happening in my life, and i should be so excited over all of them. but have i lost my excitement?
where is my Joy
where is my heart?
i'll admit i've strayed. my heart isn't hidden in Christ the way it needs to be.
Could this be God calling me back? all these tears? all these longings for something more?

sometimes i just really really need a good hug.