Fight Of My Life

So this is it.
Putting everything i've known for the past 2 years behind me, every comfort zone,  pulled away.
Today I visited another church. Today I let go of Calvary Baptist.  It won't be for forever, just 10 short weeks. But I need this solitude. This time away.

you see, i've gotten lost, and i need to find my way back.

       My relationship with God isn't where it should or needs to be. I need healing, not only spiritually but emotionally as well.  I've been confronting my weaknesses, and let me tell you, it has not been pleasant. But admitting my weakness has enabled me to start the healing process. To finally give up the pretense of having it all together.
      Its a relief actually, to finally break down, admit my brokenness and my need for help. I don't imagine the next 10 weeks are going to be easy, in fact, i know i am going to be in the fight of my life. But i'm ready; ready to move on, to heal, to be whole, to deepen my relationship with God, to dig into Him and never let go, To learn how to really put Him first, to destroy once and for all the idols in my life. And so i stand here, staring into the face of what will quite possibly be one of the toughest experiences of my life and simply say " bring it"

and yes i understand that i am a glutton for punishment with that statement,