the days are still grey, short and dreary, but i've been taking my vitamin D and soaking up the momentary glimpses of sunshine that peek through the clouds from time to time.
I also spent a good few days last week forcing myself to get out and socialize with people, which did wonders for my attitude. I found that i was not becoming an introvert as feared. phew!
i do find solace in the fact that i can now enjoy my own company. I thought that might never happen. But its also left me this week antsy with boredom ... after spending so much time pulling out of nights out and group time, i find myself longing for evenings out, something i find quite refreshing.
Currently i am sitting at gusto working and listening to some simply fabulous music on pandora, enjoying some forbidden tiramisu( dairy! uh oh) for dinner along with a decaff coffee to compliment, it makes for an altogether lovely evening.
Wednesday nights are always tricky, they fall right in the middle of the week ( funny how that happens) and they are the weeknight that most of my friends are busiest and i am the freest. This is a newer development though, as i used to work late on wednesdays and then pretty much go straight to babysitting after. Its weird, feeling like i should be doing something even though i know i'm free. I keep having moments of panic that i am not where i should be or that i am forgetting something.
Pandora has been killing it with the music selection today, its giving me tons of songs covered by strings and piano and its making me want to learn the Cello so badly, wow. its so beautiful. reminding me that i need to be playing more frequently, practicing and learning. i love learning, i need to keep stretching my brain.
its an amazing thing, music.
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